he's too good for you

he was too good for me.

what makes you think, that just because he's different, just because he's nice, he will change for you?

you will learn that you can change no one.

what makes you think he will be dedicated, just for you?
he will only be dedicated temporarily. nothing like that lasts too long.

what makes you think, you can get whatever you want when you want it and no one will stop you?
maybe someone won't stop you. i can't no matter how much i want to. you can just do whatever the fuck you want with him. but you will get hurt. it's inevitable.

what makes you think, you can be with him JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE LONELY?
you don't need anyone. you will get out of this rut ALONE and STRONGER if you have faith in yourself and if you don't put your faith into some guy, if you don't try to find yourself in him.

honey, the truth hurts. the truth is what you don't want to hear.

you will never learn, will you?

longing

I want to love.
But I can't try to love.
Love has to be there.
I want to love, but I can't.
I love, but it can't work anymore.
I want love to be there, I want to breathe it in.
I went to get dizzy off of love.
I want to feel light off of love.
I want to love.
Where is it?
I can't look for it.
Love has to be there.
I can't ask for love, I can only long for it.

shooting stars

I am in a trance.
I am in a dream.

I only feel this way when I'm content, or when I'm sure.
Am I content? I always tell myself I have to have love in order for me to be content.
I don't have it now, so maybe I am just sure of something.
Sure of what?
Sure of you?
I live on daydreams about you, it's the only thing that keeps me going.

I'm sure that it's going to come back. I'm sure it won't come now.

Until that time comes, I will continue to live in this dreamy trance, I will continue to dream of you.

And I'm sure that will be a while.

Your name

I can't believe it, I can't bring myself to even hear your name more than once or see it- I feel myself break already.
I can't stay composed when I go through a situation with someone that I've been through with you.
I can't.

i don't know why

Why does a song have to spark the heart to ache?
Why did I ache for you?

I think it was because it reminded me of when I was loved by you,or you thought you loved me, and I miss it. If you were here, it would be so much different; I think I would be happier. If you were here, it would be so amazing.

absence

Honestly without love, life is boring. What is there to live for?

fuel

To be stable, to be content rather, I need to have someone to comfort me emotionally and physical presence. I already have someone to comfort me emotionally; I have no physical presence. I have half. I run on daydreams of having someone there physically; I run on possible false hope again. But I know it will be amazing, once he's here.
For now I have to settle with no one, possibly with someone else. I know it won't be the same though.

i'm still hopelessly

in love with you. you've given me reasons why i shouldn't be.
but i am, regardless. i'm still stuck.

hopeless romantics

thats what we are.
we long for love, we always long for love, we've always longed for love.
we bathed in love, when it was there, we breathed love, when it was there.
and now we breathe emptiness, we soak in loniless, in longing.

lonelines

if you're not supposed to think about the past, if you're supposed to let go of it, what are you spposed to think of?
it's poitnless,thinkng about the "future" or things that might, or most likewill NOT come true. it gets my hopes up high sometimes..
thinking about things that won't come true, and having hope from it, that's false hope. i lived on false hope.
so wat am i supposed to hope for now? something inevitable? is there a point in hoping for something that's going to happen anyway?
if you can't think of the past, you're supposed to create new memories. those new memories become part of the past though.
you and you are part of my past. i kind of miss you, how it used to be sometimes, because i was happy.

someday love will come back.

We all have a story.
My girls, we're all in the same boat.
We're all trying to move on.


Most of us were so used to being in love, being engulfed in the presence of love, being enveloped in love. It's so easy to get used to something you like. It's harder getting used to not having, what you used to have. It's harder dealing with that emptiness.